Lisa, your blog is like a disease, really! I kept convincing myself and was comfortable thinking that the only people who deserve my love and concern are my own. I've read much during the war and the majority of my readings did nothing but hurt the opinion I had of Israelis before the war, not sure if you remember but I was an addict of your blog before the war. Those other blogs I read made me furious and enraged to a point that I fell back into the 'hate' trap for a while before I settle into the 'ignoring all others and being selfish' stage. What helped of course was my determination of stop reading all Israeli blogs. A couple of weeks ago, somebody comments on my blog recommending yours and in my mind 'duh, as if I never read her'. I resisted for almost 2 weeks to click on that link which would bring me here. In my mind, 'I don't care about them anymore'. I am sure you understand that I have my reasons, this war brought the worst in each of the parties involved and as I always thought and said, 'war is ugly'. At the same time, I am aware that I may have chosen the easy way out which is to turn my back and close my eyes on whatever I don't like or whatever is causing me pain forgetting that there are some in this world who are just 'good' or as good as I can be. And here I am today, I click your link on a blogmate and I read you ... I read the eulogy and I cry ... just like I cried when I was watching my people die and cry on TV ... I don't know why but I am upset I came here today ... ok maybe I do know why ... fine, I know why I am upset ... sigh. PS: Just a thought or a dream I might add: how about we work on a squad team and kill all those parasites out there keeping us from living in peace, the big ones not the puppets though, we need to hit the source directly otherwise it will never work ... we can sit down and toast after that :) AM (previously am_pm, changed my blog)